I hear you! It is as much about what we don’t do as being present to notice and engage with what we are doing. What also comes through in your writing though is the self compassion part of mindfulness that makes it possible to heal the wounds.

I am so glad to hear that you have taken a look at mindfulness4mothers – if you like going to bed with Rick Hanson you will love our interview with him and who knows, you might start taking Tara Brach to bed too!!

Kellie,
I finally dipped my toe into your website mindfulness4mothers.com which is a tremendous resource and honestly, even being able to sit still on the couch with my daughter, and not race, run, fold laundry and just watch a movie together is due, in part, because of mindfulness and staying present and savoring this moment and not running to THAT plan, goal or away from an itchy or uncomfortable feeling, thought or sensation. Anyhow, that’s a flavor, mindfulness is less evident in what I am doing and most evident in what I’m not doing (shooting up, getting drunk, diving into a box of Triscuits – though I still do that at times, etc.). But it’s mindfulness that makes me be able to bear the feelings/thoughts/memories, etc. and realize that as uncomfortable as it is – it’s at least the reality of the moment and not a bathing suit cover up on my life which keeps me from being able to be intimate or accessible or available to others, and mostly myself and my daughter for starters.

I really enjoyed your blog and agree that it speaks to any of us that know the difference mindfulness and the kinds of practices Rick makes so accessible can make. Looking forward to hearing more about how these practices resource you as a mom!

Thank you so much for writing! Isn’t it wonderful to be soothed and calmed and nurtured before bed and reminded of all the positive things? I have to put those soundtracks on. As of yet, that is not the natural station playing in my brain.
Thanks for info. about the one-year class. I can’t wait for that class. I signed up too.
I appreciate your writing and it makes me happy to know that people who don’t have PTSD can relate to what I’m writing. Thank you for taking the time to comment.